Twerd w/ pride and dignity

So after a long battle and much probing from my SIL, i finally jumped on the bandwagon and broke down and watched twilight. I actually put it on, one night when i was sick and thought “hmm i will use this to bore me into unconsciouness so i can sleep. Little did I know, the joke was going to be on me.

2 hours and some odd minutes later i was enthralled. Not to mention, litteraly being on the edge of my bed most of that time.

I am not one for vampire movies. Not really my “scene”. But I was hooked. The very next day i was half way through book 2 (New Moon). and now, 2 days later, I am half way through book 3.

Yes, i am now hooked. Smitten (or bitten i should say) by Edward and the whole story.

Here I am, 32 years old, SCREAMING at my book and yelling hurry. No! Go Back.  Random idiotic things, like the fictional characters can hear me, or let alone know what i want them to do.

I have screamed, thrown down what i was reading. Protested I was not going to pick up and continue cause i was so disgusted over something. Yet, my protest didn’t last. lol

How in the hell a book can captivate me so much is beyond me. I LOVE to read. I will read any book that interests me, and won’t put it down till I am done. But w/ these? I WANT to stop reading, otherwise, i will have read them all, and then what will i do? Its only been 4 days and I am almost done w/the complete saga!

I am hooked. Jumped on the bandwagon that I fought so hard to avoid. Hooked.  Complete failed attempt on my part.

I have been labeled a “twerd” by the one person who tried to get me in this very same place. Laughing at me. She knew all along how I would turn out. Addicted. Joining Team Edward.

I hear a thudnerstorm, I think of the book.

I actually found myself compaing my life, to the life of a fictional one! WTF?! I have to stop! This isn’t healthy!! lmao. Upset when Edward leaves. Upset he don’t come back. Screaming when he is sacrificing himself. On the edge of my seat when Bella is in danger, wanting to cry for joy when he says “lets get married”.. its ridiculous.

But in the end, I am glad that i jumped on and started reading. This movie has officially bumped LOTR out of my #1 spot after years and years.  I never thought anything could top my “Ringer” status. Now, I am a proud dignified Twerd.

I tried, I failed, and I am now.. Living my days in Forks, through the pages of a book so captivating, my 6 year old had to tell me to put it down, come back to the read world and watch regular tv w/ her. What a slap in the face!!! LMAO

Making plans to see the midnight showing of New Moon. Going out tomorrow night to get the midnight release of the DVD when I have already seen it a hundred times.

Heading West

So I have been thinking. If given the chance, and I could go anywhere I wanted to settle down, where would I go?

Easy answer is I would go West. Where West? I am not sure. I am in Ohio, so West is the best place to head. East of me doesn’t seem like a good choice.

Arizona. Montana. Washington State. New Mexico. Anywhere West. Far from Ohio. Far from everything I would want to run from.

Go West, start over. Reinvent myself.  Become someone else. Disappear from here and get away from the crap that surrounds my life. Get away from the Thunder Storm and Rain that hovers over me. Where no one can find me but those I take with me.

I know I am strong enough. I know I have it in me.

Colorful Light Up Socks

I am weird. I like weird things. Things that glow. Light up. Blink. Dangle. I am weird.

I buy weird socks. I buy ugly socks. Musical socks. Socks that match nothing in my closet or dresser drawers. If I have to wear socks everyday, why not make my choices interesting?

I would decorate my house with 70’s Beads in every doorway of my house if Brad would allow me to.

And by frilly dangley pillow and blankets and just about anything that dingle dangled.

I would have blinking twinkling crap all over my house. But lets be realistic here, I can’t do that.  So I keep my weird obsessions limited to my socks.

We go out some place nice, dressed up. If I am wearing boots, you can bet your pay check i have on weird socks.

If I have pants on – weird socks are there.Plain white socks are just so.. plain. And uncomfortable to wear. After you wear em once and wash em.. they never fit the same.

So weird, my socks will remain.

I told Brad, should anything ever happen to me.. bury me in sweats, a soft comfy sweatshirt, hair in a pony tail, and my weird socks. and of course lets not forget some colorful, weird character slipper. *I have tons to chose from*

I can’t have purple hair, I have to be presentable on the outside, so my feet do the weird walking in my life.

Socks – I love me. The weirder, the better.

I love my socks.

A Letter To Myself

IF I could write a letter to myself and sent it back in time, this is what I would say,

When you’re 5, hug your cousin and make one memory with him before he dies. You will always wish that you had.

When your 10 and you are living with your aunt and uncle, cause you just moved back from Florida… Hang in there. You won’t be there long. Protect your sister and never leave her alone.

When your 16, and he’s breaking your heart you’re going to do fine. This is the milestone for when you learned to be strong. Its a hard reality to have to live through, but it makes you so much stronger in the end.

When you’re growing up, find someone other than your uncle to be close to. It will save years of scars and pain.

Don’t keep everything to yourself. Tell your Mom, she will end up being one of your greatest friends. She can help.

Still get mad at your sister over the cottage cheese, turns out to be a great family joke in the future.

Call Mark back, and invite them over for drinks. This will end up saving his life.

in 2000 Make peace with the family before Grandpa dies. So you can tell him goodbye before its too late. You should not have to be the one to say sorry, but do it anyways. And listen to his stories, you are going to cherish those memories and pass them on to your daughter.

You think Liz is your friend, but trust me, she won’t be. At the party, when she starts talking to you, be a bitch. Keep her away from your family and kick her ass before the end of the night. One good ass kicking in the beginning and maybe she will think twice before she ruins your family.

Hug Chris. Hug Aunt Susie. They will be gone long before you are ready to let them go. Make tons of memories of them in Pennsylvania on Vacation.

On Market Street, don’t leave your bedroom window unlocked. That is how the neighbor breaks in and steals all your stuff. (P.S.) He will be a convicted child molester, keep your daughter away)

Trust your instincts, you are right more than you are wrong. Listen to what your head and heart are telling you. It will end up saving you more than once.

Have fun. Smile. Enjoy being young and a kid. You are going to grow up soon enough. Enjoy your friends, you will all part ways after you graduate and you will all go separate ways.

Most importantly, when your 21 and getting ready to sign the papers to join the Air Force, forget to set your alarm so you miss your appt. That missed appt leaves you sitting right here at this computer writing this letter.

Have adventures.

Enjoy your vacation in Vegas.

Make time for the little things.

Don’t let the little things that go wrong to eat at ya.

Ny Movie Premiere

My hubby runs a blog site called, The Restricted, in which he blogged about a movie trailer that he had found.  The producer of Canzo Empyrean (here is the trailer),  found Brads post about his movie and sent us an invite to go to NY and see the Premiere of his movie. We got the invite on Monday morning. The premiere is Sat. We are in Ohio…. hmmmm. Our daughters birthday party is Sunday, my hubby works all weekend. Hmmmmm… not going to happen. We played around wtih the idea of going and how cool it was that he got an invitation. Too bad we can’t make it. This is a once in a lifetime event!

He went to work, and called me. His boss told him to go and have fun and enjoy himeself! yay! We are going to NY City! He always gives up his vacations, works on his days off, and he works 6 days a week, every week, sometimes 7.

We are leaving Friday when he gets off work, getting there Sat late morning and we will be pulling back out to make the long trek ( 9 hours) back to Ohio Sat night to be here for our Daughters 5th birthday party!

I can’t wait to get pics of this! We will be allowed cameras cause of Brads website, writing about the movie, and I am a photographer so I cant wait to get my hands on the camera when we get there! I am hoping while we are there to make a quick pit stop to Ground Zero,

Too most this seems like a wasted trip, since it isnt a “Big Hollywood” premiere. It is an Indie Film. But still! We got invited to go! And when I get back and tell about our “adventure” to this underground movie preview, it will be a hell of a story. And the pics are going to be amazing!

So we are off to something I never imagined we would be doing. We are just average ppl in Ohio! yay for average!

I have TONS to get done before we leave, because I have to have everything ready for her party. And since I will be gone, it all needs to be done before we leave! I dont mind though, cause my hubby is excited and this is “his Thing” so I dont mind the extra work to get ready! I will update when we get back with lots of pics and stories!!!

There isnt going to be too much time to site see around NYC, but I am planning on hitting up the Statue of Liberty, Ellis Island and Ground Zero. The only other time we were there, we didnt get to see any of these places and now…. WATCH OUT NEW YORK, HERE WE COME!