MTV YOU SUCK!

Below My rant is what I got from the Time Warner Website:

MAke your 6 figure execs take a pay cut. Lay off the bonuses and the “Business” spending accounts. This is BULLSHIT! In an economy SO bad right now, we keep our cable cause its one of the few “extras” we can afford.. you selfish greedy bastards! all the channels we will now lose. I will boycott MTV from this day on. Greedy asses

Lets see how good your “reality” shows do now when then don’t have ANY VIEWERS!  Happy New Year to you Greedy fuckers!

My daughter is going to be devestated when At Midnight Time Warner is going to be dropping not only her favorite channel, Noggin,  shes already in tears.

And unfortunately,  when losing these 16 channels, our cable bill will be be reduced because these are “free” channels. I know Time Warner is doing this to protect us, the customers from paying more but damn.

And I don’t want anyone leaving me comments about Doing something else with my child other than tv. I might have to karate chop you in the knee cap. She watches Noggin in the morning before school. While I am cooking dinner or doing dishes. We watch it together. She don’t watch it all day. Its winter out. We like to cuddle on the couch and watch EDUCATIONAL TV! So don’t judge, just keep on moving past MY blog and go some place else if you have any smart comments. I am not in the mood.

Noggin is Commercial free- educational tv. Not like some of these stupid cartoons now adays, like the Bratz, dressed like little hootchies and caring and talking about nothing but makeup, clothes and boys.

Its good shows. Educational. And I, along with everyone else I have talked to, are outraged by this.

It may not be their fault, but this is crazy! I will admit at first I was PISSED at Time Warner. I even went as far as to call them and ask what was going on. ONLY then did I learn it was MTV and its affiliates wanted to TRIPLE our rates! I apologize for getting ready to boycott Time Warner. But I got my facts straight and I am now placing my anger and outrage at the RIGHT ppl.

Here is what I found on Time Warner Website:

We are negotiating earnestly, honestly and fairly with MTV Networks, but so far have been unable to reach an agreement or get an extension.

MTV Networks may pull its channels from your lineup on January 1st.Read a Statement from Glenn Britt, President & CEO, Time Warner Cable >>• MTV Networks wants our customers to pay millions more.  They are currently demanding price increases that are nearly triple the rate of increase under our current agreement. These increases would be excessive even in a strong economy, but given the current conditions, it’s simply not fair to our customers. • MTV’s demands are outrageous and would force our customers to pay millions of dollars more per year. MTV’s networks are not worth so much more today than they were yesterday, especially given the fact that their ratings are mostly declining in recent years. • Much of their popular programming is also available for free online. In this economy, we don’t believe it’s appropriate to ask our customers to pay so much more for programming with declined ratings or that’s available for free. • We’ve successfully negotiated hundreds of programming agreements with other cable networks, many within the last few months. Our hope is that we will come to an agreement with MTV Networks that is fair to our customers.

Yes Brooklyn, Jesus closes his eyes.

My daughter cracks me up.

A few months ago her Gamma, Brad’s Mom, told her that when she grows up Jesus will let her get pregnant.  Brooklyn is 5 at this time and she is always asking grown up questions already.
Where do babies come from. What is sex. Will it hurt when I have babies… do they HAVE to cut the babies out? No brooklyn. Then how do they come out mommy? Like When I poop? UGH! lol

So yeah, she came home from that visit with Gamma BAWLING for a week straight cause she didn’t want Jesus to make her pregnant. So I told her the truth. She didn’t have to have kids if SHE didn’t want to. That wasn’t good enough. She still cried, so I prayed with her and we told Jesus together that she didn’t want to get pregnant. That seemed to calm her down and I thought that was the end of it.

A few days later she asks me If having kids hurt. The truth is yes, but you can’t tell a 5 year old that, who is already petrified to get pregnant. So I told her she didn’t have to get pregnant to have kids. She could adopt. That put an end to that.

And then again a coupel of days later so told me she was going to adopt six kids. Cause she loves kids. Shes going to be an AWESOME mommy. (Those were her words)

“Mommy, I am going to adopt a brown baby, a black one, a chinese baby, and one white one.”"Brooklyn”, I said, “that is 4, I thought you said 6?”

“Yes Mommy, those 4 plus any other babies that need a home. I am leaving my options open” LMAO Too cute.

For the last 2 years, yes since she was 3, she’s been telling me that she DON’T want to grow up. She don’t want to be a grown up. She wants to stay little. And oh how I would love that. But trying to explain it to her, and explain to her why every year shes bigger when she don’t want to be is an impossible task.

She don’t want to grow up and get a boyfriend. She don’t want to move out. She don’t want to give up her barbies and Blankie.

His mom tells her the strangest things to tell a kid. “Jesus will take mommy and daddy one day up to heaven” That pissed me off to say the least. I went through months and months of tears and her “yelling” at Jesus to leave me and daddy alone. That is one conversation I will not have with her right now. She busts into tears anytime anyone brings up heaven. Or death.I know she is going to learn in time that mommy and daddy will not always be here. But the last thing I need is, God forbid, something to happen to me or Brad and have her hate and blame jesus for it.

So the only answer that I can give her to that is “no matter where mommy and daddy are, we will always be with you, love you , and watch over you.”

I don’t mind my daughter being taught about God and Jesus, but I don’t need anyone scaring her into believing, or scaring her so she don’t believe.

The funniest thing she has EVER said to me was one night I was putting her in the shower, due to the lack of a bath tub in our house, and she wouldn’t take any of her clothes off. Cause his mom told her that “jesus sees EVERYTHING”.  And she says no guys or boys are allowed to see her undies. LMAO

So we had to tell Jesus, AND Santa, who can also see everything, to close their eyes! LMAO
Sometimes I think she catches on to stuff that is too hard for her to wrap her little mind around. In some ways she knows way to much for a 5 year old. I want to keep her innocent and sweet and not have to worry about death, and Higher powers and Santa seeing her undies.

She is a very private person. From the time she was 2, dad wasn’t allowed to give her a bath, change her diapers pull up or clothes. She’s private. And I am glad. Same with Grandpa and any uncles or her brother.

I’d keep her little forever if  I could. I am sure any parent would. Bless her little heart!

Heading West

So I have been thinking. If given the chance, and I could go anywhere I wanted to settle down, where would I go?

Easy answer is I would go West. Where West? I am not sure. I am in Ohio, so West is the best place to head. East of me doesn’t seem like a good choice.

Arizona. Montana. Washington State. New Mexico. Anywhere West. Far from Ohio. Far from everything I would want to run from.

Go West, start over. Reinvent myself.  Become someone else. Disappear from here and get away from the crap that surrounds my life. Get away from the Thunder Storm and Rain that hovers over me. Where no one can find me but those I take with me.

I know I am strong enough. I know I have it in me.

Colorful Light Up Socks

I am weird. I like weird things. Things that glow. Light up. Blink. Dangle. I am weird.

I buy weird socks. I buy ugly socks. Musical socks. Socks that match nothing in my closet or dresser drawers. If I have to wear socks everyday, why not make my choices interesting?

I would decorate my house with 70’s Beads in every doorway of my house if Brad would allow me to.

And by frilly dangley pillow and blankets and just about anything that dingle dangled.

I would have blinking twinkling crap all over my house. But lets be realistic here, I can’t do that.  So I keep my weird obsessions limited to my socks.

We go out some place nice, dressed up. If I am wearing boots, you can bet your pay check i have on weird socks.

If I have pants on – weird socks are there.Plain white socks are just so.. plain. And uncomfortable to wear. After you wear em once and wash em.. they never fit the same.

So weird, my socks will remain.

I told Brad, should anything ever happen to me.. bury me in sweats, a soft comfy sweatshirt, hair in a pony tail, and my weird socks. and of course lets not forget some colorful, weird character slipper. *I have tons to chose from*

I can’t have purple hair, I have to be presentable on the outside, so my feet do the weird walking in my life.

Socks – I love me. The weirder, the better.

I love my socks.

WTH!

Some nerve! I wake up this morning only to find Xmas is on ly 3 days away! Why was I not consulted about this? I do not agree with it being only 3 days away!!!

I still have so much to do.  SO MUCH! And not ONE thing I have bought is wrapped. NOT ONE THING!

By the time my daughter goes to bed, i am exhausted and just fall onto the couch where i remain till i sleep walk up to the bed.

I have tons of stuff to do to get ready b4 Xmas eve when both of our families show up for Dinner. Starting tonight we are going to start cooking. Yeah, thats right, it takes us that long.

10 pounds of potato salad and 10 pounds of beans and weenies – we have to start cooking tonight.

We are having gift exchange with my sister and her family tomorrow, and I still haven’t got my niece anything. That might have something to do with the fact that I couldn’t find the ONE thing she insisted on having. I am going to have to come up with my own gift idea. damn it man!

So much to do. And yet, here i sit venting my frustration out on the computer, into a blog instead of doing what i need to do.. why? Cause i have been at it since 9 this morning  a nd it is now 5:36 pm and I am finally taking a break.

although I am almost done, I still have a whole world of tasks weighing down on my shoulders. grrrrrrrrrrr…

So next year, Dear Santa, I am asking that you give me a little more notice before Xmas sneaks up on me 0- only 3 days away. This is unacceptable!

Oh, did I mention that tonight when my husband went to work – we lost all oil pressure in truck, yet AGAIN! So now I have to take time out of all the free time I have tomorrow (Note the sarcasm in my typing) to get that fixed, AGAIN! Bah Humbug. Scrooge don’t have anything on me this year!!!

Happy holidays to all of you out there that are happy happy and full of singing caroling joy. Blah to you.

On a side note: though I am venting and complaining, this is actaully my favorite time of year! LOL i love the holidays. Even if I am beyond frustrated. But I am every year. Its one of my holiday traditions!