Took a step

So I took that first step and called the hospital down in Texas to see how my dad was doing. Hes stable now, but still in critical condition. He responds when asked a question by blinking his eyes for yes and no. He is still not talking. his vital are starting to stable out and his labs came back good. He died on the table and they brought him back. He has a lung infection, and hes starting to recognize ppl.

I talked to a few of my Aunts down there that I have met a couple times while they were visiting here.

I am more confused then ever before when it comes to my dad. Some of the stuff they told me. I don’t know. All I can say is that I made that first step and called the hospital. I left that door open should he chose to walk through it when he gets better.

No matter what happens from all this, it will change everything. Should he walk through that door that I opened, I could end up having a dad. Should he not, then that door is closed and I no longer have to wonder about “what could be”, “what if….” I will know one way or the other.

I am not entirely sure if I made the right decision. But when I stopped to think of “it might be too late” I figured it might be now or never so I took that step and called. If I am making a mistake, I will learn in time. If I am not, then I have nothing to worry about, right? I took a chance that I might not get again. I guess I will learn in time if it was the right thing to do or not…………

My aunt told me that my dad was still an alcoholic. And that maybe now, he will go into rehab and get some help. They believed he OD’d. But they aren’t sure and not sure what it could have been.